Alexa is sick...again. She was up off and on last night coughing and with an asthma attack. We are physically and emotionally drained and are struggling to find time to cry.
Sometimes we don't need to cry, we need to laugh and enjoy what is before us. Sometimes we just need to attack the task list. Which tends to be long, trying to "get ready for" Christmas and Ava's Memorial service all at the same time. There is hope in our despair. There truly is.
Sometimes I feel like I could just collapse from exhaustion. Then the doorbell rings, the mail comes, the phone rings. Whatever is at the other end/side or in the box is just what we needed to keep on moving.
I would say that my sorrow is so profound that I can't put words to it or experience it fully. It will come in time. At the same time we march along and try to regain "normalcy" a fraction at a time.
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The Estel Family here in Florida want you to know how sad we are for your lose. How greatful we are to God for standing beside Eric to welcome Ava home. God has filled your life with riches only some could understand. The work that will go on because of a little sweet dear ladybug,is one we we will never forget. through her an Erics life,may there be research to help find the answers to te why's hows and health. God Bless your family, and know you are loved by many. The Florida prayer warriors will continue lifting your family up to God and his healing power of love....
ReplyDeleteGod Bless you and your family during this difficult time. No words can truly help, nothing but time can ease the pain. Just remember you are surrounded by angels here on Earth to help you when you need, and there is a brand new one in heaven that couldn't love you more.
ReplyDeleteMike and Melinda Watkins wish you all of the love and joy that your dear family deserves! We are saddened by your loss, but feel the peace that the Lord has given to you all. That peace stands as a beautiful testimony of the work of the Holy Spirit in your family! Abide in His love!!
ReplyDeleteI am speechless & close to tears at His strength, displayed through you, and your family.....God Bless You All
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ReplyDeleteWhat a beautiful service today...Ava was a beautiful baby and is now a glorious little angel..I just know it. I got home from the service and was of course thinking of the beautiful Benton family..as I find myself doing often...I was looking at all of the beautiful snow and thinking of the peace and beauty that comes after such a storm and relating it to Ava...as I looked up to see the snow on the trees there was a ladybug in December on my window pane...thank you God take care of that sweet baby.
ReplyDeletexo-Julie C.
I've never met you, but through a mutual friend I have been reading your blog, following your difficult journey and praying ever so much for you. In every word, mixed between the sorrow you feel, you shine HOPE and blessing to those who have ever faced a trial, no matter how big or small. Thank you for believing and living in the peace that God brings in the most unimaginable circumstances. It is encouragement you share and reminders of God's perfect peace to those whose minds are focused on Him. I am praying for your family- to continue each day, waking with renewed hope, strength, JOY, blessings...in every area of your lives.
ReplyDeletePrayers are with you and your family. So sorry.
ReplyDeleteGoodbye precious little girl. Can't wait to meet you someday. Praying for peace and healing for your family.
ReplyDeleteoh friend....(this is Adrienne Rohrman's sister again). I have cried and cried over the passing of Ava. I have a daughter that is 3 months old and I just can't imagine this happening...twice. I am soo amazed and in awe of your trust and faith in the Lord. I am a believer for sure, but through the storm you have really shown me to look to the One who never changes. He is the same now than before Ava arrived. I am soo deeply sorry for your loss. I will continue to look at that beautiful face and KNOW she is even more sweet and beautiful and perfect in HIS arms...right now. God is good friend. We are praying for you and your family. for peace...love to you friend. Look to the hills and see HIS mercy!
ReplyDeleteI was humbled again yesterday by you and Ava's memorial. It really was a beautiful service. Thank you for sharing her life with us. My thoughts a prayers are with you.
ReplyDeleteI didn't know when I saw you at the mall. I am amazed at your strength, your ability to go on for your children and yourself. I have prayed often for you and your family and I will continue to do so. May the Lord give you peace during this holiday season and always. Patty
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