Tues

So no phone calls through the night means Ava must have done OK. We are going to go sit by her bedside and continue to wait. The girls are all tucked in their beds. I got to kiss each of them last night. No one woke up either so that was a bonus. When I kissed Emily and Alexa I saw that they were all intertwined, just how they slept as babies. Little Lain-Lain fluttered her eyes, rolled over and sucked her thumb. When I kissed Ava goodnight last night she too fluttered her eyes and peeked them open.

I long for a chance to tuck them all in myself, kiss them in their own beds and wake up to face the day with my four wonderful daughters under my care.

Ava has her muscle and skin biopsy in a couple of hours. We will not have any results for about 4 or more weeks. We hope we have her when her results come in.

Sometimes, often really, we find ourselves wondering How this became our life. We hold tight to the fact that this is God's Plan for us. Since it's His plan, it is perfect. Hard to say, hard to swallow, but acceptable because as strange as it sounds, we KNOW that He loves us. Even and especially through this.