Prayer

If you would pray for Emily that would be great. She is super sad right now. It breaks our hearts to watch this. When Alexa and Elaina were going through their intense grieving phase were more numb than we are now. As hard as that was to witness and deal with, at least we were "padded". Now that we are able to think a bit past tomorrow, it makes it all the more poignant to watch her go through her steps.

The other thing is that I have to fight with my need to not want to watch it. This is Emily's storm and we have to ride it out with her while God navigates her ship.

She is so deep and compassionate. That is awesome, but on the flip side she feels things deeply and they tend to be a little locked tight. She is happy go lucky by nature and wants to see the good in her world. This is hard for her. To be so disappointed. She is recalling big events and has big questions. Some of which make me sad to hear since what we thought was a good decision, is hard for her today.

At the same time I think that there may be a certain level of "milking" it. I need wisdom to discern which is which so we can act accordingly. It's a fine fine line. One that we are walking as well when we are low on the patience and tolerance.